For those of you who remember

The Crisis Interviews

my popular series of interviews with intriguing MySpace friends

Volume One: Anti-Mike
(Does God Love a Genocidal King?)

Volume Two: Ed
(Erstwhile Militant Atheist)

Volume Three: StormChaser
(Fantasy, Comedy & Women)

I happened to turn the tables a bit in December

and let





Here is

Part Three

Secret Agent Nico Pudding2 ©

1)Do you understand women yet? (and no, that’s not a yes/no only question, you must explain, either way)

2)Is your wife okay? (in reference to the ER trip)

Posted by Secret Agent Nico Pudding2 © on December 19, 2007 – Wednesday at 7:21 PM

Jesus Crisis

2) She is okay… she feels like shit, but the antibiotics should knock it out of her in the next couple of days. Thanks for asking. And I won’t count that question against your two. (-;

1) Yes and no. The more I understand women, the more I understand is beyond my understanding… lol. The biggest thing I’ve come to believe is that all women are not the same. Different ones do or think different things for different reasons. And hell, I don’t even always understand men – or myself. So I’ve traded in understanding for loving appreciating and tolerating… lol. That’ll have to be good enough for now.

Thanks, St. Yonder

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 19, 2007 – Wednesday at 10:52 PM

Secret Agent Nico Pudding2 ©

You’re overdoing understanding men. Trust me.

And yes… they are indeed beyond understanding. Not beyond prediction tho…

One of the best movie quotes, ever…

“How do you write women so well?”
“I think of a man, and I take away reason and accountability.”

I’m just sayin…

Posted by Secret Agent Nico Pudding2 © on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 1:42 AM

Jesus Crisis


Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 9:23 AM

Art of Gilead (aka Spud, aka OB

No questions my friend – just the best of wishes and brightest blessings on you and yours.


Posted by Art of Gilead (aka Spud, aka OB on December 19, 2007 – Wednesday at 7:36 PM

Jesus Crisis

Thank you, Art! We wish you and yours the same. (-;

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 19, 2007 – Wednesday at 9:51 PM

The one that got away

How much does a pound of cheese weigh in outer space?

What’s the square root of 69?

That’s second is actually a set up for a punch line we probably all heard when we were eleven..

Posted by The one that got away on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 12:19 AM

Jesus Crisis

LOL… my “guesses” are

1) Nothing

2) Eight-something

Thanks, Delicious!

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 9:38 AM


just one question:

are those skeletons hanging in the window behind you in the pic?

Posted by Conundrum on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 6:15 AM

Jesus Crisis

Yes, they are. Good eye! My mom took that pic – Lucky and I were on her back patio swing. She is really big on decorating for the holidays, and especially goes all out for Halloween. Funny… I didn’t really notice the skeletons in that picture until you mentioned them.

Thanks, Conundrum!

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 9:33 AM

Radical Girl Friday

My questions for you: 1) On your page, you have a banner stating that you are going to vote for Hillary. Can you give me three compelling reasons why she is your choice? 2) Have you ever considered giving your vote to Ron Paul…why or why not? P.S. I hope that you have a wonderful holiday!

Posted by Radical Girl Friday on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 6:37 AM

Jesus Crisis

Great questions, my friend, and some of the most difficult for me to answer… (-;

1) I don’t know how compelling these will be without devoting pages of elucidation to each one. But the three biggest reasons I’m supporting Hillary (and that’s not to say she hasn’t made some decisions I’ve seriously disagreed with) are as follows.

a) I had considered voting for her for a while (and some other candidates as well). But I finally made up my mind to support her after reading her autobiography Living History. I recommend that everyone read that – as well as Obama’s books. I try to read every book about and by every major candidate – and hers was the one that impressed me most, for a number of reasons I don’t have time to go into here. But I would like to devote an entire blog to why at some point.

b) Her experience – not just in law school or as First Lady or in the Senate – but overall. I feel that she is the most experienced candidate on several levels.

c) A combination of (admittedly) somewhat silly reasons (which might or might not seem less silly if I had time to explain my views on why each is important), including: her husband, her electability, the fact that she’s a woman, her position on abortion, her support of civil (including gay) rights, her past health care reform mistakes (which, ironically, make her in many ways the most knowledgable and the least likely to make a future “mistake” in this realm), her toughness, her ability to change course (I see this willingness to concede something is obviously not working, though it often makes her seem inconsistent, as a refreshing change of pace after eight years of the intractable Bush/Cheney combo)… and the fact that Al Gore isn’t running. (-;

2) Regarding Ron Paul…. I don’t know enough about him to make an intelligent argument about him either way. But my impressions (for what they’re worth) are these. He’s Republican (not a deal killer if I were convinced that he’s the best candidate and electable – but I’m not). As I just said, I feel he’s unelectable – which is one reason I wouldn’t “waste” my vote on Kucinich, though on many issues, I feel Kucinich is more a like mind than Clinton). And I think that if Ron Paul didn’t feel he had more in common with the Republicans than the Democrats, he wouldn’t choose to be a Republican. Also, experience is a huge issue for me. I love what I’ve seen of Obama so far – but I’d like to see him with more experience and more of a record I could judge him on. Part of me thinks the best Democratic candidate is Richardson – but can he win? As far as Ron Paul, I don’t think he can even come close to winning the Republican nomination, especially without kowtowing to Republican interests. I’d like to see him break off and run as an independent, if he means what he says about being different – I think that would spur a lot of people (myself included) to give him a closer look. And in his case, I think doing so would enhance his electability.

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 21, 2007 – Friday at 12:40 PM

Susannah Dean

“… and the fact that Al Gore isn’t running. (-;”


Posted by Susannah Dean on December 21, 2007 – Friday at 2:12 PM

Black Widow

What is the worst thing that happened to you in prison?

And Merry Christmas!

Posted by Black Widow on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 6:45 AM

Jesus Crisis

Hi, BW!  Merry Christmas to you as well!  That’s a good question, and I had to think about it for a while, because several things came to mind as possibilities. THE worst would probably be this: early in my “bit,” I was working as a program aide in the prison’s residential drug/alcohol treatment dormitory. One of my “friends,” a Christian guy I liked and who didn’t seem to “belong” in prison, said he thought somebody was stealing his belongings while he was at work. Since he trusted me and since I worked in the dorm where I could observe everything, he asked me to keep an eye on his bed area and let him know if anyone got into his things. Well…. That day I saw one of his “buddies” get a cigarette out of his drawer. The buddy (named Robert Vaughn) was always hanging out with my “friend” – they ate meals together, etc. So I figured he must have had permission. I didn’t really make the connection that this Robert was the thief. So when my “friend” came back to the dorm from work and asked me if I’d seen anybody in his area, I told him I hadn’t seen anyone there “but Vaughn getting a cigarette.” I told him for his information only, and didn’t really expect him to tell the thief. Well…. A few hours later, Vaughn came up to me, acting friendly as always, and asked me if I could go into the day room for a minute. I didn’t think anything of it, since my job required me to tutor the residents in the day room whenever they needed help. And I naively did not put two and two together (there was a corrections officer in the main dormitory, but not in the day room). (-; When we got in there, Vaughn asked me, “Did you tell him I was in his drawer?” My response, “yes, I…” was interrupted by a massive blow to my head that knocked me to the floor. When I regained consciousness, I was summoned to the sergeant’s office. Somebody had told him I’d been assaulted – and the sergeant wanted to make the guilty party pay. But he needed me to tell him what happened and sign a statement. Well, I wasn’t going to make the same mistake twice and let my mouth get me in trouble again. So I insisted that I had merely slipped on a puddle of water near the microwave oven in the day room. The sergeant didn’t pursue it further then, and I returned to the dormitory. The fact that I didn’t tell on Vaughn earned me a great deal of respect among the inmates. And eventually (months later) Vaughn would apologize to me and try to be my friend.

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 21, 2007 – Friday at 1:29 PM

Black Widow

Wow, that was interesting. And I think you were probably pretty lucky if that was the worst thing!!!!

Posted by Black Widow on December 23, 2007 – Sunday at 5:09 PM

Jesus Crisis

Worse than that almost happened… but thankfully, no! (-;

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 23, 2007 – Sunday at 6:09 PM

David Lawton

Dear Jesus,

Why does it hurt when I pee?

Posted by David Lawton on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 8:32 AM

Jesus Crisis

You got it from the toilet seat….


Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 9:25 AM


Thanks for the opportunity to “ask anything.” How did you come up with the name Jesus Crisis. What do you think is the nature of God?

Posted by Tara on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 8:37 AM

Jesus Crisis

Excellent questions, Tara! Thanks….

2) What do I think is the nature of God? I feel like I could write pages and pages on this topic without adequately explaining my view. But I will try to keep it short and relatively simple. Richard Dawkins has argued that “God” is not the best word for the type of “thing” that I tend to refer to as “God” – and maybe he’s right. But here goes….

God is not supernatural. I don’t know that there is anything that IS supernatural. I’m not saying it’s impossible. But I tend not to believe in such things. I believe that all we can know are natural phenomena. Just because we don’t understand certain things does not mean that there is no reasonable, natural explanation. People used to think that the idea of the earth orbiting the sun was unnatural – but it was NOT unnatural. People used to think there must be a god pulling the sun around the earth in a chariot – or that the sun WAS a god – because they couldn’t understand how it could be possible otherwise. Before we understood photosynthesis, we thought the growing of plants was supernatural – but it’s not. Before we understood chemistry, we thought the reaction that occurs when baking soda and vinegar are combined was magical – but it’s NOT. These are all natural phenomena with reasonable explanations that we didn’t understand before. Show somebody from Shakespeare’s time a television, cell phone or computer – they would think it must magic, or something supernatural. But they’d be wrong.

So if I don’t believe in a supernatural God, what do I call “God”? There is an energy that is part of everything that is. And “everything that is” is a part of that energy. Everything is flux, movement, energy…. We “living beings” are merely associations of molecules, which are associations of atoms. We don’t really die; our molecules simply unassociate… and then they eventually form new associations – maybe with the earth, or the air, or the plants that grow out of the earth, or the animals that eat those plants. Every atom has a certain amount of atomic energy. This energy that is part of everything, that everything is part of, and that essentially IS everything… this energy is what I call God. Why? It is omnipresent (present everywhere). It is omnipotent (it does everything that is done). And it is omniscient (all consciousness comes from it – even if consciousness is dependent on the molecules forming certain associations in certain ways). And this energy is natural. I choose to call it God, but others can call it anything they like. (-;

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 21, 2007 – Friday at 3:56 PM

Jesus Crisis

1) Several friends have asked me about the name Jesus Crisis in the past, and I’ve been meaning to write a blog about it, but…. Now it seems I can procrastinate no longer! (-;
I used to play piano for the chapel services in prison. My friend Tim, who played trumpet, sat beside me. Well… we had a good friend named Joe, a smart/funny/multi-talented guy who also had a mental illness. He was perfectly fine as long as he took his prescribed medication. But once in a while, Joe would start to think he didn’t need it anymore. He’d quit taking his medicine and start becoming delusional. It was sad, because like I said, he’s really a great guy. Anyway… at one point he went off his meds, and one Sunday morning while we were sitting in “church” we witnessed Joe stand up, interrupt the chaplain’s sermon, and exclaim to the congregation something like this (I wish I had written down his exact words): “You’re all blind! You sit here thinking about how much you supposedly love Jesus, while the chaplain stands up there making it sound like he’s so well acquainted with Jesus – and yet here I am, Jesus Christ, sitting in your congregation, and you don’t even recognize Me!” Of course the whole congregation burst into laughter. It was very tragic, but (I must admit) quite funny at the same time. My friend Tim whispered into my ear, “Uh-oh. It looks like Joe’s having another crisis.” And I said, “Jesus crisis.” At the time, I thought it was quite witty and original. I told him the next day that if I got out and formed a band, I would call it “Jesus Crisis.” Another thing that made me choose the name…. I participated in (and later helped teach) a conflict resolution workshop called “Opening Doors” while in prison. In that group, we discussed how the Chinese character for “Crisis” is actually a combination of two different Chinese characters – one meaning “Danger” and one meaning “Opportunity.” In every crisis, there is potential for danger and/or opportunity. The key is to look for the opportunity and thus overcome or sidestep the danger. And being in a dangerous situation like prison, this concept really resonated with me. So when I use the name Jesus Crisis, I am reminded that every crisis contains two possibilities – and that the choices I make matter very much. Sadly, though, after I created this MySpace music profile (several years later) and took on the name “Jesus Crisis,” I learned that some other folks had independently come up with that same name. I’m not even the only “Jesus Crisis” on MySpace! Alas…. (-;

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 21, 2007 – Friday at 3:28 PM


Hey, at one point in my life I was the subject of a similar accusation, and like you I was innocent. Fortunately it never came to anything so i didn’t have to go through anything like what you’ve been through. But the experience changed me, it made me more thoughtful and philosophical, so despite how shit it was at the time I wouldn’t change it because i like who I am now. Would you change things if you could? and would it necessarily be that event that you’d change?

it’s a great, and very brave blog by the way



Posted by Andy on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 8:46 AM

Jesus Crisis

Would I change things if I could? I’d like to say I wouldn’t – that all the experiences were necessary steps in my personal evolution, and that I’m a better, wiser man as a result… et cetera. But do I really know? I recently watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (starring Jim Carrey) – and in it, he decided to change something, only to regret that decision and then move heaven and earth in an attempt to change it back. But if I REALLY had the chance to change something in the past, maybe I WOULD change it. If I did change one thing, I would probably make it so that I would never have even crossed paths with my accuser.

Thank you very much, Andy – for your friendship, your question, and especially your sharing a bit of your own experience.

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 21, 2007 – Friday at 1:40 PM


Thank you for this opportunity to find out more about you, already an interesting and inspiring person.
My question is : If you could ask anyone or tell anyone anything you wanted, at any time in history, who would you ask or tell, and what would you ask or tell them? That includes your history. I hope that isn’t too many questions disguised as one!

Posted by Edwinna on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 9:19 AM

Jesus Crisis

Thanks, Edwinna!

This is a very tough question. There are so many people I’d like to ask so many things. If God exists, he or she might be the first “person” for whom I’d have questions. But if I limit myself to actual human beings, I’d probably choose my alleged victim. I’d like to ask her why she accused me of such a horrible crime – and why now that she’s over thirty, she still doesn’t come forward and tell the truth. Is she afraid of getting into trouble for perjury? Hopefully, the court wouldn’t hold a lie she told when she was only 15 against her too much now. I wouldn’t want to see her get into trouble or go to jail. I’d just want to see the truth come out, have my name cleared, and then put it all behind me and go on with my life.

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 21, 2007 – Friday at 1:50 PM


Assuming that you are innocent…

I imagine that she is as trapped by her lie as you were. She probably built up her own personality around being a victim. One lie after another built upon one another in such a way that she is trapped in a personality and reality built on a fabrication. She has probably lived a life of the fear of being found out the phony that she has become.

One possibility anyway.

Karma of a sort. The thief fears theft the most.


Posted by MentalMaze on December 24, 2007 – Monday at 9:23 PM

Jesus Crisis

You may be right, my friend. I mean, how could it not bother her?

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 24, 2007 – Monday at 9:52 PM


Thank you, thank you and kudos for the past few sentences above. Pardon me totally for bringing up THAT GIRL. As I recall she said to you in a letter “shit happens” I will say no more. You can explain her. All I can say here is remember your friend Gary Reece! This is even a worse story.
25 years innocent…and finally out on parole. Is he also considered a “sex offender” while on parole? Time out for questions. It’s too late. But there will be more to come when you return.

Posted by Elena on December 21, 2007 – Friday at 2:30 PM

Jesus Crisis

Yes, he still has to register as a sex offender… every three months for the rest of his life.

Gary’s the one who first informed me of the passage of S.B. 10.

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 24, 2007 – Monday at 9:54 PM

Elaine being my own hero/wizard/teacher/guru

Sending loving vibes to you both….
I found this really interesting to read and had some intelligent questions to ask as I was reading them until I had a brain dump, or maybe it was just a mind fart!

1. Do you believe that life is like training for who you need to become?
2. Would you do it all again if you had the choice to go back and get the truth out there early?
3. Would you really want to trade all the learning and understanding you came out from this with, gifts can have funny wrapping sometimes don’t you think?

Can I link to my newest blog…..smiles I liked it when I wrote it I hope others like it too :o)
We are in this all together~with or without a God~discuss please all angles

Posted by Elaine being my own hero/wizard/teacher/guru on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 9:55 AM

Jesus Crisis

Thanks for the vibes, the great questions, and your friendship, Elaine!  Please feel free to link to your blog in mine anytime you like!

1) Yes, I believe life is training. Some of my friends in prison and I used to say that “the joint” was our university and our seminary. And because we looked at it in that way, it became that for us, to a large degree. But I believe the same could be said of ALL our experiences in life – the good, bad, and neutral. To me, everything is an opportunity for learning, for growth, and for personal evolution….

2) If I had the choice, I would definitely have gotten the truth out from the beginning. The feeling that one can’t be open and honest is in many ways as much a prison as the brick and mortar one I spent eleven years in. Some friends have told me they thought my coming out with all this when I had a good, popular blog going was utterly foolish. But I don’t agree. It hasn’t been entirely easy, and I’ve lost a few “friends” as a result. But it’s been liberating! And the friendships that remain have deepened and become more meaningful as a result.

3) As difficult as it has been, I don’t think I would trade in “the learning and understanding” to be rid of my “experience.” I’ve thought a lot about this – and, as I said in response to Lisa’s earlier question, I think I need, in some hard-to-describe way, to be ME, to live my life, for better or worse, and make it the best life it can be.

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 21, 2007 – Friday at 10:20 AM


It is hard and difficult to be “in the joint” but as I said to you many times, what you have been able to read, to learn there was your university. From everything you have written in the past year on these blogs I KNOW you have learned and absorbed knowledge and spirituality. The hard thing now is to redeem the stigma and fight it any way you can since innocence is the truth in your case.

Posted by Elena on December 21, 2007 – Friday at 2:39 PM

[Note: Here is where a friend named Justine asked me about the West Memphis Three.  But her photo and profile disappeared from MySpace, along with her comment on my blog.]

Jesus Crisis

Thanks, Justine!

I have heard a little about the case. My impression without having all the facts is that they were wrongly incarcerated – and I recall a tribute album being done by Eddie Vedder and others to help their cause. But I’m reluctant to comment too much on the case, because, like I said, I don’t feel I have enough facts to reach an intelligent opinion.

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 21, 2007 – Friday at 1:55 PM

Susannah Dean

1. who is your favorite poet and what poem by this person is your particular favorite?

2. who is your favorite painter and what is your favorite piece by them?

3. if you could have any job you want, in any place that you would like to be, what/where would they be?

and, i’m giving myself a bonus question, since i answered the question about the statue first:

4. are you right handed or left handed or both?

Posted by Susannah Dean on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 3:49 PM

Jesus Crisis

1) My favorite poet…. That’s even more difficult than my favorite painter! So many worthy choices and I find it so hard to put one above the other…. I tend to have favorites in categories. For example: my favorite 19th century American female poet (Emily Dickinson), my favorite 20th century British male poet (T.S. Eliot, followed by Ted Hughes), my favorite Spanish-speaking poet (Pablo Neruda, with Lorca a close runner up), my favorite living male poet I’ve actually met in the flesh (S B Smith) … and so on and so on, ad infinitum. Comparing them with each other, however, seems to me almost the equivalent of comparing apples and oranges, pineapples and peaches. It’s like a Christian choosing his or her favorite member of the Trinity.

So to answer your question I will refer you to what I think is in many ways a perfect poem (it’s not the only one, and it’s quite different from other poems I might call perfect), by a man who was, at least at the very moment he wrote it, though not at every moment in his long poetic career, the finest poet of his generation – Allen Ginsberg.

Click here to lend your ear to Ginsberg’s “Howl.”

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 21, 2007 – Friday at 2:50 PM

Susannah Dean

howl is one of my very favorite poems.

i had a feeling this would be a hard one for you *smiles*

i do not think i could pick a favorite painter, so your willingness to try to pick a favorite poet ummm speaks volumes…

(i keep tryng to give you more kudos with every comment

Posted by Susannah Dean on December 21, 2007 – Friday at 4:39 PM

Jesus Crisis

2) It’s very hard for me to choose a favorite painter. If I have to pick one, it would probably be Salvador Dalí. Choosing a favorite work by him is difficult, too, and largely depends on my mood at the time I do the selecting. And it’s hard for me to say one is better than the other when I see excellence in so many of his pieces. So I guess I’ll quit trying to overthink it and just give you the first one that came to mind when I thought of “my favorite Dalí” this afternoon:

Geopolitical Child Watches the Birth of the New Man (1943)

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 21, 2007 – Friday at 2:09 PM

Susannah Dean

this particular piece seems very appropriate for you right now. i like.

Posted by Susannah Dean on December 21, 2007 – Friday at 2:30 PM

Jesus Crisis

4) Right handed! Though I’ve tried intentionally to write poetry with my left hand….

3) First thought: I’d like to make a living as an author and songwriter, living on the coast in Maine – or on Nova Scotia or Prince Edward Island in Canada.

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 4:03 PM

Susannah Dean

interesting. i’ve tried drawing and painting with my left hand.

coastal and mountains. also interesting.

author and songwriter? yeah, i can see that *smiles*

Posted by Susannah Dean on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 4:47 PM

Susannah Dean

p.s. i think the reason your bangs are so adorably uneven in the picture of you as a boy, is because your mom put a pyrex bowl on your head, and she was cutting it, you squiggled and squirmed, causing the bowl to slip.

Posted by Susannah Dean on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 3:53 PM

Jesus Crisis

lol… that’s a distinct possibility.

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 3:59 PM

Susannah Dean

silly me!

i forgot i wanted to pimp out 3 blogs…

Titillation, transcendence and tremendous talent

Which Dalí Wonder Won? (with a bonus: Jesus’ package)

and last but certainly not least:

Mary Cheney – the worst rap video in history – by me!

hee hee…

Posted by Susannah Dean on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 4:43 PM

Jesus Crisis

Silly… you didn’t have to pimp mine! LOL.

But thank you!

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 9:03 PM

Susannah Dean

moi? silly? never! always!

i should have put a warning on the video. that rap will stick in your head and pop up again, just when you think it might be safe…

Posted by Susannah Dean on December 21, 2007 – Friday at 5:52 AM


I would ask, but I have this uncanny ability to turn everyone I touch into an asshole, so I won’t.

Posted by Terese on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 4:38 PM
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Jesus Crisis

LOL… please don’t touch me then. (-;

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 9:01 PM

Elaine being my own hero/wizard/teacher/guru

I reckon you have been in training to be a very talented writer for many years, even when you didn’t realise it….hence my leading questions! I think because you have such strong stories that stir people’s thinking up plus a great writing and presentation style you have great potential to be very successful….I have great faith in you….smiles

Posted by Elaine being my own hero/wizard/teacher/guru on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 4:51 PM

Jesus Crisis

Thank you so much, Elaine! I still plan to answer every question by the end of business tomorrow, though with my wife’s illness (and I think I may be getting a touch of the flu now, too), as well as other things coming up, I haven’t gotten to respond to as many today as I’d expected. It’s okay, though. This is cool… I’m enjoying the questions, though many don’t have quick and simple answers. You’re all getting me to dig deep and reflect – and I dig that. (-;

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 7:34 PM


1. Do you believe in any sort of afterlife?
2. Do you believe in fate et al destiny?
3. Do you believe in monogamy?

I do subscribe to your blog. I loved your contest about the art identification. I think you are witty, intelligent, and very attractive. I don’t believe you did any really bad things, and if you ever did do anything really bad, I think you have atoned for it. I like the way you treat people and your non- judgmental responses. I think you are very kind and don’t believe you would harm anyone intentionally. I just wanted to say all this, being the very direct, honest, and sincere person that I am. You may have covered some of these questions in your previous blogs, but being in my advanced stage of aging, I may have forgotten the answer.
Peace & Love,
Have a good Holiday!

Posted by Susan on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 6:41 PM

Jesus Crisis

2) Do I believe in fate and/or destiny? This is very hard for me to answer, because I’m not sure. Part of me wants to believe, and at times does believe. That certainly makes dealing with my incarceration easier – that way I can say there was a “reason” or a “purpose” behind it – and that’s consoling. But do I REALLY believe that? And do I believe there was a “reason” for horrors like the Holocaust? No…. So I don’t believe in an unalterable fate or destiny. But I think I CAN say that I believe that we create our own fate or destiny. I might not have any control over the fact that I was falsely accused and sent to prison. But I do have an option in how I respond and what I make of this “crisis.” As I said above, I was taught that the Chinese character for “crisis” is a combination of two different Chinese characters – one for “danger” and one for “opportunity.” I could let my incarceration be nothing but a danger, destroying me (and perhaps others in the process), or I could make up my mind to see it as an opportunity and make something good come from it. That is what I refer to as my destiny: I have a duty/resposibility/desire to make something positive and constructive out of it all, to the best of my ability. But I wonder if “destiny” is the best word for it, because I DO have a choice in the matter. If I choose and create my own “destiny,” does that really fit the textbook definition of “destiny”? Probably not….

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 21, 2007 – Friday at 4:57 PM

Jesus Crisis

Great questions, Susan… but tough ones to answer! LOL

1) Regarding an afterlife…. I went into a lengthy discussion of my “definition” of God in my response to Tara’s question above. I believe in a natural “God,” not anything supernatural – and I suppose you could say the same of my view of an “afterlife.” If “all that IS” is energy, and the law of physics that says energy cannot be created or destroyed (but that it simply changes forms) is true, then in a sense there is no beginning or end. There is simply an association and a disassociation of molecules, followed by different associations and disassociations. When I “die” and decompose, my molecules will gradually disassociate (of course that happens over and over as we “live” as well – molecules are constantly shed and replaced by other molecules). But the molecules will always exist, and will make new associations. Maybe one of the molecules of Shakespeare is part of my body now. Perhaps a molecule of a Hebrew or African slave is part of me. Perhaps a molecule of John Keats or Genghis Khan or Buddha, or a lowly serf in medieval Europe or a carrot or a cabbage or an orangatang…. So I don’t know that I would call it an “afterlife” – maybe it’s just a continuation of life. Or maybe in some sense there is no life (and no death) Maybe it’s just an existence (an Energy) that has no beginning or end. Hopefully that doesn’t sound too mystical… to me, it’s not mystical at all, but natural… though it is definitely an idea I find hard to fully wrap my mind around or put into words…. (-;

Hope you have a great holiday as well, Susan….

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 21, 2007 – Friday at 4:14 PM

Jesus Crisis

When I said “the molecules will always exist,” I should have said “the atoms that make up the molecules will always exist.” That’s more accurate. (-;

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 22, 2007 – Saturday at 6:47 AM

Jesus Crisis

3) This is perhaps the most delicate question. I’ve read some very convincing scientific articles that suggest that most members of the animal kingdom (human beings included) are not necessarily evolved to be monogamous. And I tend to agree. That said, whether that is our natural, evolved state or not, I do believe that in this day and age, monogamy is a wise choice, for a number of reasons. And so I recommend it.

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 22, 2007 – Saturday at 7:04 AM


I was intrigued by all your answers and again you have given me another perspective on the things that I think about et al believe. I think you would be a great teacher/professor. You are a natural. Thank you so much!

Posted by Susan on December 22, 2007 – Saturday at 6:10 PM

Jesus Crisis

You’re very welcome, Susan. And thank you!

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 22, 2007 – Saturday at 6:42 PM


I don’t think anyone has asked this particular question yet:

Where do you think you would be, and what do you think you would be doing now, if your life hadn’t been sidetracked the way it was? (In other words, what were your early plans for your future life?)

Thank you, JC, for being such an interesting and entertaining blogger… I admire and respect your honesty– and you– very much.

Posted by Dianne on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 7:25 PM

Jesus Crisis

Thanks, Dianne!

I had planned to be a teacher… probably a college professor… though I’d changed my major several times before my incarceration (and several more during and after… lol) and hadn’t yet settled on a field. So many topics interested me (and still do).

That said, I sometimes think that if I hadn’t been falsely accused, I might be dead (maybe that’s a defense mechanism to help me accept and endure the tragedy – I don’t know). At the time, I was drinking more than was healthy on a nightly basis. I was being fairly promiscuous (and so was my girlfriend at the time) – goodness knows what would have come of that. A couple of my closest friends died of AIDS two years after I went to prison. But at the time I went away, they apparently had no idea they were HIV+. Goodness knows what I might have gotten into if I had remained free. I might have caught such a disease, or I might have destroyed my liver with drinking. I might have gotten in a horrible car accident, seriously hurting someone else or myself. I had planned a trip to New York City, which I had to cancel after the accusation was made. If I had gone, perhaps something bad would have happened to me there. I don’t know… it’s all speculation. I’d like to believe that I was “rescued” from a worse fate than prison. But do I believe in fate? I don’t know. Do I believe in a supernatural “rescuer”? Not really…. Maybe I was lucky going to prison, and just didn’t know it. Maybe I was simply as unlucky as it appears I was. There’s no way to know for sure. But I’m alive, free of STDs, with a perfectly functional liver – and I might not be if I’d remained free. So I’m going to count my “blessings,” make the most of my life as it is, and try not to speculate too much about what might have been (which only depresses me).

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 21, 2007 – Friday at 4:39 PM


Thank you, JC, for sharing your feelings on this subject… I would never want you to be depressed over “what might have been”, for you have realized your goal of being a teacher, whether or not you know it… You are a teacher in many ways, through your blogging posts and conversations… I have learned much from you already, and I’m sure many of your Myspace friends would agree with me. I feel fortunate that we have you with us. I am only sorry that you had to endure the ordeal of false accusation and wrongful imprisonment to get to this point.

Posted by Dianne on December 21, 2007 – Friday at 5:45 PM

Jesus Crisis

You’re very kind, Dianne! Thanks….

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 21, 2007 – Friday at 9:02 PM

Insatiable Jewel

No questions at the moment but stopping by to read and leave kudos!

Posted by Insatiable Jewel on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 7:40 PM

Jesus Crisis

Thanks, Jewel! (-;

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 7:41 PM


Hey thanks for sharing everything you do. I’m a bit confused about the idea of Myspace deleting you. Are you saying that your honest and obviously not guilty ass would be under scrutiny but all of the millions of existing yet not yet caught true perps can stay until they get busted and are on record? Heres an idea, teach are children to protect themselves, teach our young women not to lie about sex they regret (This lame ass idea that too many women have these days that sex is power need to wake up), teach our young men not to be so pushy about sex (lets try teaching the boys to be honest and sensitive too eh???), teach our youth to know themselves and do the RIGHT damn thing!!! Oh and what your favorite color

Posted by Hardcorebrat on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 11:54 PM

Jesus Crisis

You make some excellent points, Hardcorebrat! I’m not quite sure why MySpace has a one-size-fits all policy of deleting all registered sex offenders – probably because it’s much easier and less time consuming than actually investigating each one to see who does and does not pose a threat. But I’m kinda amazed at some of the horrible stuff on here that they don’t delete.

They actually deleted Hillary Clinton’s profile back in the spring, “by accident.” And then her people had to rebuild her page and network of friends. I wonder if right-wing folk like Rupert Murdoch’s “News Corporation” owning MySpace had anything to do with it. Maybe not…. (-;

My favorite color always used to be blue… but after eleven years in prison wearing nothing but blue, I’m not quite as fond of it…. lol. Now I tend to go for earth tones, especially brown.  And I love black.

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 21, 2007 – Friday at 8:32 AM


Dear Jesus Crisis, why do I rely on spell check only to have it let me down?

Posted by Hardcorebrat on December 20, 2007 – Thursday at 11:57 PM

Jesus Crisis

Finally a question I cannot answer… LOL.

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 21, 2007 – Friday at 8:57 AM


You see, everybody wants to know about THAT GIRL. I also want to know. Who the hell is she anyway to have done something like this and lied in court? See the first letters I posted on my blog. I know nothing more than what John and his mother have told me.

Posted by Elena on December 21, 2007 – Friday at 8:15 AM

Susannah Dean

i’d like to weigh in my 2 cents worth here.

i feel that if john wants us to know about

he’d tell us. his honesty here is astounding to me. i’d be willing to hazard a guess that he hasn’t said anything about her, because even though she unjustly and unfairly accused him of something he did not do, he still will not say something bad about her.

karma will take care of her.
ka is a wheel.

what goes around comes around for her.

Posted by Susannah Dean on December 21, 2007 – Friday at 8:23 AM

Jesus Crisis

I will have to respond to that question in a future blog. I will respond, since said I would. But I also clearly stated that questions asked after midnight Thursday would have to wait, and that question was asked on Friday.

From my original blog:

“All questions submitted as comments on this blog by Thursday evening (midnight, Eastern Standard Time) will be answered, insh’Allah, by the close of business on Friday, after which I plan to take a few days off from blogging for the holidays.

Questions asked after midnight Thursday may have to wait for future blogs; please don’t be offended if I don’t get to them right away.”

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 21, 2007 – Friday at 8:41 AM


I think he doesn’t say anything about ‘her’ because he is innocent. The innocent don’t have to fight back. He moved on, rebuilt and grew…obviously. The best revenge is success, right? Congrats on your wonderful insight, honesty, loving spirit and desire to reach out in a positive way Sir JC. Ah, even if this were a more complicated story your maturation in this is proof enough of redemption. I feel blessed to know of you so kudos dude!

Posted by Hardcorebrat on December 21, 2007 – Friday at 9:35 PM

Jesus Crisis

Wow! Thank you very much! You’re very kind, and I must say I feel blessed to know of you, too. I am very grateful.

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 21, 2007 – Friday at 9:41 PM

The Hillbilly Bible

John, Do ye believe in the hereafter?….then ye know what I’m hereafter….read yer email, brother.


Posted by The Hillbilly Bible on December 22, 2007 – Saturday at 5:37 AM

Jesus Crisis

Haha… okay, I will get there in a minute, my friend!

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 22, 2007 – Saturday at 6:40 AM


Hi JC, I have 2 questions,
Have you or do you plan to ever travel outside America?
If you could choose anywhere in the world to go, where would it be?

Posted by josie on December 22, 2007 – Saturday at 11:14 PM

Jesus Crisis

Thanks, Josie! I planned to wait until after the holidays to respond to further questions. But since yours are easier and quicker to answer than most, I’d like to just do it while I’m here. (-;

I’ve only traveled outside of America once – last summer when we visited Maine, we crossed the border into Canada for one afternoon and visited U.S. President Franklin Roosevelt’s former summer cottage on Campobello Island in New Brunswick. Here’s a picture of me taken behind the cottage:

FDR's summer cottage, Campobello Island, Canada

But I would definitely love to travel more places outside the U.S. if I can get a passport. Places I want to visit, if possible, include India, Spain, Mexico, the United Kingdom, Ireland, Australia, New Zealand, Israel, China – and I long to take an auto tour of every province in Canada.

Posted by Jesus Crisis on December 23, 2007 – Sunday at 8:59 AM

Stay tuned for more questions and answers, my friends.